Wednesday, April 19, 2006
life is still a shithole! but i guess i'm adapting better to this shithole! oh wells. life goes on.. hee.

anywaes, yesterdae, caryn asked me "what makes u happy?", and it got me thinking... what really makes me happy? i pray for happiness, i wish i'm happy everydae, but what REALLY makes my day? hmm...

i guess i'll be happy when my family is safe and healthy. yep. getting good grades won't make me happy, but getting horrible grades will make me sad for sure. knowing my friends care for me will definitely make me happy(*hint: shower me with much TLC pls! :) ). heh. doing well in the things i do will make me feel good about myself, and i guess when u feel good about urself, u'll be happy huh.. yup. so there. these are the things that'll make me happy.. but if only it were all that simple..

okie then, that's all for the thought of the dae. hee. and i'm off to be a mugger now!

and, thank you for the letter wai! it was a pleasant surprise!!! :)

i simply LOVE them! (pardon the mushiness pls.)

Monday, April 17, 2006
life is a BIG PILE OF SHIT. HUGE. and i'm deep in it now.

studies--shit
cca--shit
social circle--shit

yep. shit. shit. shit. shit.

anyways, i think the time is ripe now. yep. it's time to morph into a full-time mugger. after all, life is shit anywaes. can concentrate on studying day and night. night and dae. and then dae and night again.

shit.

Sunday, April 16, 2006













thanks for everything! :)

Saturday, April 08, 2006
just came back from my grandma's birthday dinner. she's 70 this year! i pray that she'll be blessed with good health this year and many more years to come! :) and happy birthday to joycee too!

okie, i think this is gonna be a rather depressing entry. feeling rather low right now. life has been kind of monotonous. actually, i wun even call it a life. i basically spent all my time in school, at home and at trainings. yep. how much more depressing can life really get? and the times spent at home and at school are not even constructive. i'm behind all my tutorials, i can't seem to pay attention or absorb anything during lectures, and it has become a chore trying to make conversations in school. nothing seems to interest me anymore. even the thought of going out makes me feel tired. okie. being a little dramatic here, but life really just seems kind of depressing nowadays. havent seen a movie in ages, havent met up with friends either. havent even really been studying. what am i doing with my life????? i have no freakin idea. urgh.

anywaes, have been thinking alot about dropping fmaths the past few days. but i guess it's kind of stupid to drop now, especially after registering for A's already.. but AHH!!. can't seem to understand so many things! what's with geometric distribution and normal distribution and rotational bodies and yada yada yada... WHY DIDN'T I DROP IT EARLIER??? what was i thinking?? sigh. so. what do i do now??? persevere on? or just waste $45 by dropping out. is it just going to be $45 i'll be wasting? or am i gonna lose much more? and what if i cont. with the subject? is it going to affect my overall grades at the end of the year?? sigh. should i just take one step at time? but how many steps can i actually take before falling into a pit?? :( :( :( :(

sigh. so many to things to do this weekend. don't know where to start. mind's a huge mess right now. gonna go get some sleep. hope everything will sort itself out when i wake up in the morning.

yah right.

Saturday, April 01, 2006
happy april fools' dae! :)

had a match todae. sigh. kena thrashed terribly. quite sad. but oh wells. life goes on.. it's only a game huh. dunno why i've been feeling this way recently, but apparently, i feel like i've lost all passion for touch rug. i dun look forward to trainings anymore, i dun feel like taking part in comps and i feel like i can't do anything right during a game. maybe it's time to close this chapter in my life and move on to new things. :(

anywaes, went to rent "about a boy" just now and went with qt and caryn to rj's house to watch.. i feel like i'm trying to escape from school work cause i know if i go home, i'll have no choice but to face my books. and i relle dun feel like doing that now! bleaghz. all i want to do is... SLEEP. yeps. sleep. been feeling tired ever since tuesdae and no amount of sleep seems to satisfy my tired mind..why??! caryn says maybe it's cause i have a huge "sleep debt" and my body's claiming it all back now.. but i've been sleeping so much! i should've paid back all my debts already! grr. sleep eat sleep eat sleep eat sleep. i won't be surprised if i actually grew a snout pls.

okie then, going to do something which i do best now--sleep. shall blog more another time!